200 Hours Later

Picture a golden glow, with obnoxious yet glorious rays shining in every direction directly out of my face. That is how I felt as I completed my 200 hour yoga teacher training. I spent 10 months immersing myself in all things yoga, and I finally reached the end of that chapter and I felt RADIANT. I still do. I have been struggling to write this post for months, purely because I don’t know where to begin. So much happened in this training and I am still absorbing it all, even now. Continue reading “200 Hours Later”

Recharge (with Style)

Let’s try an experiment.

I want you to look at the word I’m about to write, and take note of what first comes to mind when you see it. Ready? 

This magical word is: self-care

What did you see? Did you envision yourself getting a pedicure, reading a book in the bath with lit candles around it, or maybe getting a luxurious massage? In this day and age, the term “self-care” is often synonymous only with activities such as those…but why?! Those are all fantastic examples of self-care (I would practically kill for some alone time to read a book without constant interruption), but let’s not forget that tending to the needs of your body and mind can also just mean closing the bathroom door on your kid so you can pee in peace for once, or choosing not to answer any of those 57 emails until tomorrow when you’re ready to, or even as simple as taking a few deep, cleansing breaths. At the end of the day, the act of taking care of ourselves comes in many shapes and forms. It’s about creating a sacred space for you to cultivate healing of your mind, body and soul, whatever that may look like.
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The Countdown

I am a note taker. I am constantly, CONSTANTLY, writing myself notes or creating “to-do” lists (of important tasks for a particular day, or goals I hope to reach but with no set due date). The first weekend of May was the second to last one of my 200 hour yoga teacher training, and a couple of my classmates were unable to attend. One of them reached out to me and asked if I’d share my notes with her afterward, so at the end of the day on both Saturday and Sunday I happily wrote out a lengthy email full of information I had managed to hurriedly jot down in between poses. Seeing all of it typed out like that, with any gaps being filled in by my own perspective or understanding on the topics, made me realize that this is actually happening. I am VERY close to being certified to teach people yoga, and that is both exhilarating and terrifying.

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The Act of Letting Go & Not Fainting

At my last yoga teacher training weekend a couple of weeks ago, our class was asked, as homework, to think of a person who has hurt us, and see if we can arrive at true forgiveness after considering our role in the situation, as well as the ignorance involved from both parties. We were asked to look at it objectively with discernment, and ask ourselves if we can take responsibility for what is ours, and release what is not.

Are you still with me?

Suffice it to say that literally no one was comfortable with this assignment. Nobody. Who wants to revisit a difficult situation, and then look for where YOU were wrong?! Yeah, no thank you. Still, I gave it a try.

I had a couple circumstances that immediately came to mind, but I settled on the one that felt still somewhat unresolved to me. This option is not nearly as emotionally difficult as the other I could have chosen, yet somehow it seemed infinitely harder for me to really admit my fault in it. That lead me to question why. “What exactly am I resisting here? The idea that I was wrong?” But I was wrong! For parts of it, I was extremely wrong. Yet looking at the problem from this perspective changed things considerably, and I am not good with change. I’m getting better (yoga has helped me with this quite a bit) but I am still very much a creature of habit, who feels the urge to control everything whenever possible. Unless I am the instigator of the change, I tend to only see it as a frightening wrench in my carefully laid out plans. This usually results in my anxiety arriving to take over. Good times.

I made a genuine effort with the assignment, and eventually came to feel like I had made a small bit of progress. At the very least it forced me to let go of some (likely misplaced) anger I was holding onto. A meditation I use when teaching Reiki includes the instruction of “letting go what no longer serves you”, and I think I had failed to practice what I preach in this regard. I chose not to share my experience in class, mainly because of the complex emotions I have associated with it, but listening to other people sharing was really eye opening. It was heavy. I cried (what else is new). If you are reading this and feel like doing something super uncomfortable but potentially productive, I urge you to revisit a painful situation of your own, and see if you can gain a new perspective on it after accepting responsibility for what is yours, and letting go of what is not. Can you arrive at true forgiveness for the other person? For yourself?

One other aspect of this particular weekend that was intense for me was the chant that we normally do. I feel a strong connection to this chant (it is called Śrī Guru Pādukā-pañcakam if you’re interested) and I practice it on my own frequently. I took a couple of recordings of the class doing it in the past so that I can sing along in the car or at home.

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My teacher had asked me to lead the chant during one weekend, and while it was a little nerve-wracking, I enjoyed it because it just meant that I got it started, and then the whole class chanted together as one. On this most recent weekend, however, things were different. Marc (my instructor) pulled me aside before we began a long meditation, and asked if I would lead the chant again. I agreed, thinking it would be the same as last time.

Marc led us into a quiet meditation, as we all laid on our mats with blankets covering us. He came over to me after awhile and let me know it was time for the chant. I started to get up into a seated position and quietly asked him if I should ask the rest of the class to do the same. He said no.

I was confused, but not panicked yet. “So… he wants me to sit up, but everyone else will chant lying down. That seems strange, but okay.” I sat up with the words to the chant in my hands, and then finally, after probably a century, realized that I was meant to chant BY MYSELF. To the room of nearly 20 people. If you don’t know me well, let me explain to you that I have extreme social anxiety. I’m doing better with it lately, but regardless I was honestly shaking with cold sweats.

It’s funny how you can come to find what you are truly passionate about when you are faced with something so scary. Through this experience I have learned that I am really and truly passionate about chanting, because I managed to put those feelings of impending vomit and fainting to the side, due to how badly I felt the need to perform the chant. I began with the traditional opening of “sadgurunath maharaj ki jai”, and then went through all five stanzas of the chant in Sanskrit clearly, without faltering. I felt so much lighter afterward. So much happier. So, hi. My name is Katherine, and I am a devotional chant nerd.

This chant in particular is translated to English to read as though we are worshipping someone’s sandals…I can see how that seems very odd. The sandals are just a metaphor, though. They represent those of us that have walked the path before us. With this chant we are honoring that path, and its traveler. When I first learned this in class, it resonated with me immediately. Each time I practice this chant, I devote it to someone new that has walked the path of yoga (or life in general) before me. I never run out of people to choose from. I am learning from everyone around me, all the time, and to me that is worth honoring.

So there is my wrap-up of my latest YTT weekend. The usual tear-shedding, but thankfully no embarrassing loss of consciousness episodes to speak of. I have only 3 weekends left (1 next month and 2 in May) and I’m excited to finish, but also trying to properly savor my time in this experience while it lasts.

Namaste.

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Heart Openers

Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built.” -Rumi


 

I had my monthly Yoga Teacher Training weekend several weeks ago. While every training weekend leaves me feeling renewed and full of new material for introspection, this most recent one involved an experience that I am still working through internally.

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Reiki & Yoga

Hello!

Lately I have been doing a lot more yoga than I did previously, and actually enrolled in a 200-hour Yoga Teacher Training that begins this fall. Along with deepening my practice with asanas and learning more about the background and other aspects, I have also been experimenting with combining my yoga practice with my Reiki one, and it has been really enlightening.

When I first got into Reiki in 2013 (when I took a Reiki 1 course with Joanna, the previous owner of THC) I remember part of my reasoning was to expand on my yoga practice, thinking the two would complement each other, yet I can honestly say that up until the past couple of weeks, those two practices of mine never really crossed paths. Whoops!

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New Practice Location

Hi there!

It has been awhile since I’ve had any significant news, as I’ve been focusing on school, and my Reiki practice took a bit of a smaller role in my life. As this semester is coming to a close and I feel more confident in my studies, I am excited to announce that I will be offering Reiki services again in Downtown Beverly!

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“I’m awake!”

Hello! Long time no see.

My daughter has recently learned the phrase “wake up!”, so now I will often find her screaming that into my face if she sees me with my eyes closed for more than .02 seconds. Sometimes she’ll mix things up a little by saying it while also shaking me as hard as her 2 year old frame will allow. I don’t think I ever considered the possibility that parenthood would involve going to great lengths to prove that I am, in fact, already awake.

Aside from that new development, I feel like I have had quite a lot going on in my life (but don’t we always?). I’m still in school and still LOVING it (I am genuinely excited to do my precalculus homework every week), I moved to downtown Beverly which has been too wonderful for words, and I have been making more time for practicing yoga and handlettering. Overall, this has been one of the best winters I’ve ever had, and I know it’s only partly because we’ve had a pretty small amount of snow.

I’ve been doing my best to focus more on my interests, big and small, and make them more of a priority in my daily life. I think for awhile I was overly consumed with my role as a stay at home mom, and really neglected my own interests and passions. It didn’t occur to me for a long time that preventing myself from doing creative and self-loving things was actually making my job as a mother harder. I take more joy in watching Willow grow and learn now that I also pay more attention to my own needs. Parents need outlets! People need outlets!

I have no other earth-shattering news to share, I just felt like it was time to poke my head out and say hello. I am still offering in-home Reiki sessions and level 1 certification classes on a limited basis, so please feel free to email me at info@thehealingcenterbeverly.com if you’re interested and want to know my availability.

I also wanted to share that All Creatures Veterinary Hospital in Salem is currently a drop-off location for Syrian refugee donations. So if you happen to live in the area and want to donate, they are looking for clothes (for children and adults), toys, feminine hygiene products, diapers, soap, bags, bedding, and a few other items. Click here to visit their website, though I don’t think they have any information about the donation drive on there (I receive their email newsletters and it was included in their most recent one). Everything they receive will be shipped to Syria.

I hope you are all doing well!

Take care of yourselves,

Katherine