When meditation doesn’t feel like it’s working

This last week or so has been difficult for me. At times throughout my life, I have struggled with bouts of insomnia and this week was one of them. In recent months, I’d only have a night here or there were I wouldn’t sleep well, but it’s been more than week now of being awake most nights in the middle of the night. After a few nights of sleeplessness, if you’ve ever had insomnia, you know that things start to get difficult. You feel out of it, cranky, have a hard time focusing, meditating and doing all the things that are good for you. You also have a hard time handling surprises, changes and challenges.

Everything starts to take on an edge of being extra stressful because it is so hard to function during the day when you are not sleeping well at night. I have so much compassion for parents who sometimes go long periods without good sleep. The whole situation starts to compound in a downward spiral of stress and frustration.

Even so, I have been meditating and grounding quite a bit, and still I am unable to fall asleep or stay asleep at night. Sometimes it’s incredibly frustrating when you don’t see or feel the beneficial effects of good habits like that. I am still getting exercise daily to help release the agitation that builds up from not sleeping, but the nice feelings from that don’t last long either. I know, from previous experience, that hanging in there and keeping at it will help this transition period settle down and balance out sooner. This is when faith and discipline kick in to help me get to the other side of the rough patch.

I’m sharing this because I want you to know that even though I’ve had a daily meditation practice for more than 15 years, it’s not all peaches and cream. Sometimes life is hard around you, and sometimes it’s your inner world that’s challenging.

When life is challenging is exactly when meditation and healthy habits are most necessary because they help you get to the other side of the challenge more easily, even if it doesn’t feel like it in the moment.

As this past week unfolded, I found I was just unable to keep up the pace I normally keep with working full time, graduate school, seeing friends and family and plenty of daily exercise and spiritual activity. It finally occurred to me that maybe my body was telling me to slow down, so I surrendered and took yesterday off to rest and relax. I did notice layers of stress start to melt away and a deeper peace emerge.

One day wasn’t enough though, and my body is telling me I need more down time to wind down to a pace that will work better for me. Perhaps my body is aligning with the cooler, fall like weather we are having lately. In any case, I’m doing the best I can to clear away the static in my mind with meditation, exercise and grounding, so I can hear what my body and spirit are telling me about what I need right now.

What do you do when times get rough? Do you stick with your meditation practice or do you give up on it?


If you need help with your meditation or self-Reiki practice, join me at The Healing Center for support. Each week my colleague Tamara hosts a Monday evening Reiki share from 5:30-7pm and each Wednesday a Meditation circle from 6-7pm.

I’m also offering Sunday afternoon Reiki Refreshers to help you reconnect with your Reiki practice. I’ve also scheduled two late night Reiki shares for Moms and Night Owls in August, and a Heart and Soul Circle for releasing stress and reconnecting with our hearts.

And for professional practitioners and heart centered entrepreneurs, my Creative Retreat is coming up at the end of the month for you to take time out of the day-to-day to bring some clarity on where you need to go with your business for the rest of the year. See below for details. Reiki certification classes will start in September, and I’ll be sharing the schedule with you next week.

Wishing you and yours a wonderful, healthy week!

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